Crazier Things Have Happened

This is my first and probably most personal YouTube video. I want to take the opportunity to do things out of my comfort zone while I have the time. In the video I vaguely explain what happening these past few weeks but in this blog post I will go into the details. This is for anyone who is struggling to find their way in college or is unsure of where they are going. I hope my experiences can help someone just like how someone else helped me. 

I started off the spring semester excited and ready to spend the next couple months writing countless essays. I never expected myself to be so miserable in class. As soon as I received my syllabus I could already feel a change within me. The second day of classes was even more difficult. I couldn't concentrate in class and I felt anxious all the time. As I finished the first week of classes I was a mess. I was taking 300 and 400 level english classes and I realized I really did not care about literary theory or early british literature. I knew english was no longer what I wanted to pursue and that scared me. For years I always thought I would major in english because that was my best subject. I am great at reading quickly, processing information, and writing essays but that does not mean english is what I would have to pursue. I felt lost and confused as if my life no longer had direction. The english classes I was taking felt pointless because I no longer had a goal. I started to fall behind on readings and I felt helpless. 

After talking to many friends, my counselor, and my parents I made the decision to take this semester off. It's something I never thought I would do. I always assumed my years in college would be a straight forward, four years to graduation sort of thing. As I am taking the semester off I am also in the process of transferring colleges. It is definitely a risk because although I had a relatively good GPA, there are no guarantees, especially if I am applying to transfer so late. As of now I hope to go into advertising and marketing. It is definitely a more creative field and I think it suites me a lot better. 

If someone told me I would be taking the spring semester off as a sophomore years ago, I would never believe them. Life has many twists and turns but everything happens for a reason. Although I'm in a risky situation right now, I feel oddly calm. In a way that's how I know I'm doing the right thing. 

For anyone is who unsure of where they are going, don't stress over it. Do not be afraid to go for what you want because passion will always motivate you. If you feel unhappy at your current school then apply to transfer. Although it is a hassle doing all the paperwork and putting yourself in a completely new and unfamiliar environment, it will be worth it. Do not be afraid of change because sometimes that could be what you need. 

I'm so lucky to have parents that are so supportive of me taking the semester off. They've made it clear that all they want is for me to be happy and I couldn't ask for more. Also, a huge thank you to those who have comforted me and guided me throughout this process. I know I had a lot of questions but thank you for your patience, you know who you are! And lastly, thank you to my boyfriend who has been so supportive through this difficult time. He was literally my shoulder to cry on when it felt like the weight of my future was crushing me. I am so blessed to have such amazing people in my life. And thank you for reading and embarking on this new adventure with me.

Love,

Kristin L.